I really didn’t know what to expect when I went public a few months ago. For the longest time I wanted everything to be private. I had a very strict no social media policy. My close friends knew and family knew but I didn’t want this out there in the world. I think I was afraid of being treated differently and being treated as sick. And I’ve never believed that I’m sick. I don’t feel sick. I don’t look sick. Saying the words “I have cancer” was really difficult. And then explaining such a rare cancer was even more difficult. There is something happening to my body and it’s not happening to me. My body and mind are fighting this with every power of its being.
I never could have expected the outpouring of love and support from family to close friends to acquaintances to people I haven’t spoken to in 10+ years. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for everything. It all means the world to me. Every text, tweet, email, FB message, meal, it all means something.
If you ever want to find the good in humanity this is it. I’m going through something terrible and almost everyone has rallied around me. People say you learn who your real friends are when you go through something like this and that is so true. And it turns out I have so many wonderful friends. It’s a wide net and I still can’t come up with the words to say thank you. Those words don’t seem enough.
I am one day away from this surgery and have never felt so supported.