The emotions of marathon training

I had one of those terrible horrible make you question why train for marathon runs this weekend. I know those are bound to happen. I know it’s the weather, but it is so defeating. I was mad. I was upset. I wanted to get to my planned mileage. But I didn’t. I couldn’t. It just wasn’t going to happen.

Now I expected there to be ups and downs during my marathon training. That is bound to happen. This is the third time I have trained for a marathon. I kind of know what to expect. I also know to expect the unexpected and that so much is out of my control. But I wanted this to be different. I foolishly thought it would be easier. I have no idea why, but I thought it was going to be. I have the experience of having run a marathon and having not made it to the starting line. I know the good and the bad. That doesn’t make it any easier. Not even a little bit. I wanted this to go smoothly.

I was supposed to be training with Sara, but it’s summer and life happens. We are both really busy. We still get to do a lot of out weekday runs together, but we have barely been able to match up any of our long runs. We did have one totally amazing run on what can only be described as a magical day. It wasn’t hot, it wasn’t humid, it was actually nice running weather. I want that all the time. I know that’s unrealistic, but it’s what I want.

I never expected the summer from hell. I know summer running isn’t easy, but this is horrendous. It’s killing my spirit and my desire to run. But I am not ready to give up. I still want to run the 26.2 miles. I still want to cross the finish line. I still want to do it all. I want to do the 20 mile training runs. I am prepared for the ups and downs that will come over the next few months. And on October 7 I will toe the start line with Sara by my side and we will both cross the finish line with smiles on our faces.

9 thoughts on “The emotions of marathon training

  1. Whenever I have those awful runs, even shorter ones, I tell myself that I’m improving. It’s silly and almost too simple, but it works for me. If I go out and run a solid tempo run and feel like dancing afterwards, then maybe I didn’t push myself enough — maybe I was too snug in my comfort zone and my body didn’t really build on itself.

    But when you go out on those awful runs, either because it’s too hot or your legs aren’t fresh enough or it’s hilly or you had too many drinks the night before, you are at an innate disadvantage. Overcoming that disadvantage is what will make you stronger on that perfect, 50-degree day with no humidity and a flat course.

    And yes, sometimes there are no explanations for having a crappy run. But if you get through it, you’ll be better off than if you hadn’t.

    Good luck in the next two months!

  2. It will get better. This summer has been really, really hard on us runners. I have been feeling it and I know a lot of other people have too. It will get better. And if it doesn’t, you have to do what is best for you. Running a marathon is not worth making yourself miserable. I have every confidence in your ability to do this, but you have to want to do it. I heart you either way.

  3. I’ve done 4, and they’ve never seemed easier! I think a huge part of the seeminly easy thing is that we surround ourselves by awesome people on Twitter/DailyMile who do these things regularly, and it’s all glitter and rainbows, and perhaps others don’t openly talk about the struggles. That’s my theory, because 26.2 miles is not easy. It’s a fierce bitch.
    I have no doubt you and Sara will have an incredible marathon together too!

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